Self Expectations
So I've come realise that my own expectations of myself are too high. I need and want everything to be perfect right now. I had a 1:1 last week to discuss around my AOLs. I complied a list of subjects to discuss with Adesola it was only talking them through I realised maybe I had gone the wrong way about them/misunderstood the purpose/task. I felt a little deflated initially and disappointed in myself that I had not got things perfect.
I took a day to reflect looked back over my list with the additions and notes from my 1:1 and began the task again... I've now looked at this list daily and tired to an rest specific with what my learning is/was.
I've chosen 1 topic and began to write a 1st draft yesterday, I feel positive and have enjoyed the process. I have found several areas of research and articles/journals surrounding the subject which have helped.
So basically what I've come to understand (which I kind of already knew and I tell my students this everyday) it's ok to not be perfect and know everything from the start. What would be the point of undertaking a course if I already knew everything? It's ok to make mistakes!
Dear Garry, thank you for sharing. I can relate a lot to what you are writing. Telling my students, that mistakes are ok, often even lead to a better learning experience. But forgetting to apply it to yourself . I actually find it very interesting to go through the experience of being a learner again, it makes me see my students in a different light and relate to them in a different way.
ReplyDeleteHi Garry, The MAPP journey certainly is useful in realising that we have much to learn and that mistakes are part of it! Thanks for your post.
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Hi Gary, I just read this as though I'm reading my own story right now!! Also when I had my 1st 1.1, my advisor gave me the same response, and I realised I was trying to go about the AOLs all wrong. I have also started again, and about to hand in my first draft of my 1st AOL, but I havent heard back from my advisor for 2 weeks, so I am just a little concerned if this is going in the right direction. Did Adesola give you feedback on the first draft so you could rework anything ? And may I ask what were your main AOLs in Module 1. Hope Module 3 is going well and thank you for all your posts, they are really helpful to us all in the beginning of this wonderful but if a little daunting journey we are on.
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